There is more to life than just a broken heart, a shattered ego or a lost relationship. There is more to life then perfection, a person who walked away, a current unfulfilled goal. There is more to life than materialistic crap, negative vibes and weight gain. There is more to life than having a negative bank account, having millions of dollars and smelly feet. There is more to life than recovery, uphill battles and cries for help.
We like to dwell. We like to wallow. We like to have an excuse to take a break. Don’t worry I am not pointing fingers, I do the same. There are times where it feels impossible to think that there is anything more to life than all of the dreadful things I named above.
Broken heart? I have had that a time or two and trust me when say in the moment it was life crushing.
Shattered ego? Oh yes. This goes with recovery, weight gain, self- hate. All of which again I felt was life crushing.
Smelly feet? I hate to admit it but this is one of those life crushing moments that ties into pure embarrassment on all levels.
Lost relationships and people who’ve walked away? I’ve had plenty of these. Boyfriends, best friends, family, coworkers. You name it, it’s crushed the soul.
Negative vibes? From myself and others. Damn, I do not accept this in my life anymore because of how life crushing it truly is and has been in Alexa’s world.
Can I fill you in on a little secret though? You don’t need an excuse to take a break at times. You don’t need to dwell and wallow to have a day in bed with an entire pizza, a cartoon of ice cream, a sad romance movie and some tissues. When life happens sometimes other things just need a chance to slow down. Your brain needs a chance to pause and to lift its spirits. Maybe your body and mind need a bit of self-reflection. A bit of reassurance?
You, in all your glory. In all your leaving behind these “more to life moments” glory. You, have the power to get out of a funk. To realize that life has so much to offer. That you have a fighting chance to open your eyes and see what’s right in front of your face. To open your ears and listen to what someone is trying to tell you, to music that is trying to move you, to words that will extend the upmost wisdom into you.
Friends, I have been in this funk lately. The there’s definitely not more to life than my recovery of back surgery, the weight gain and muscle loss because of this recovery, the unfulfilled goals because of unmotivated days and weeks, the very negative vibes, the people walking away, the relationships ending and the confusion that comes along with it, the extreme farness from any sort of perfection, the uphill (miles uphill) battles and cries for help, the guilt on top of guilt. Hmm I am actually a little embarrassed to tell you that this has all been going on in my mind because I am normally such a positive person but dang I am human just like y’all and just as I tell you YOUR FEELINGS ARE VALID I am struggling and choking on the words to tell myself that as well. That although this isn’t where I want to be it’s exactly where I need to be.
Remember that life is filled with the most beautiful sunsets. That you can connect with the most beautiful souls in the snap of your fingers. That you can hike insanely beautiful mountains and sit on a beach and watch unreal amounts of ocean water rage in front of you. That you can eat tacos any day of the week. That positive vibes exist. That bodies in fact recovery with patience. That every grocery store gives you an opportunity to buy ice cream. That you can get in a car, or on a plan, even a boat and see this entire planet. Basically, anything and everything is possible you just have to remember that it is all there.
It’s important to notice those “there’s more to life than …” moments. Notice them and move on from them and despite any hurt, any loss … you are thriving, you are living and you are doing far more than just existing.